Am I beautiful?
In a world filled with ugliness
how can I take my share?

Am I beautiful?
With these scars all around me
unwashable dirt everywhere

I'm lost in these memories
I can't seem to find
through the pain all around me
a calm peace of mind.
There's something here for me
if I only knew what
A vision of happiness
that I'll never touch

But

I'm on the outside
always looking in
trying to cope with
the secrets of my sin
This cage that I've built me
from doubt and despair
can only prevent me
from showing my care

These tears of blood I've spilled
have stained my heart
and kept it still
Teach me to smile
without having to care
I need a new remedy
a new face to wear

So leave me in the open
strung out amidst the rain
cut off my understanding
and let me feel the pain

I'm tired of the comfort
when none of it is real
I need a new beginning
to stop feeling what I feel

Just let me be ugly
let me embrace the dark
let me fall on my knees
and bleed.

I'm tired of smiling
through the pain in my heart
there is no redemption
for me.

Not for me.